I wonder....

You touch my skin , i wonder
if you really enjoy
with my thoughts
i think im your toy
my silence , your words
my mind
shutdown

im cold , im angry
i hate , my suicide
my life , is painless
my future , is my darkness

your hands on my back
your pain , on my mind
i wonder ... i wonder

all your lies filled my mouth
i cant say what i want
i dont dream
i waste it all away
even if you come back
even if you love me again
i wonder...
if it would be the same!!

My dark in my eyes

im disfunctional , some part of me is missing
without it im insecure
i dont see straight
my dark in my eyes
it happens every time
i see myself in the mirror
without you

i know i hurt myself
i know i bore you
i know you say to i keep myself away
but my emptyness dont have another solution

you saying these words , you put my soul in the ground
but i cant help myself stop thinking
thinking in another version of my life
a life that i had before
before beeing dead inside

i found my home inside your heart
but i lost the key
i cant open the door
no matter what i do , is never what you want
i dont know what you pretend

its like you have a knife
stabbed in my heart
killing my love
leaving me
above the edge
to fall apart again , to fall apart again


depressed by your way to love me
i know you do
sad is you not show it to me
mad is me when i see i have to keep away
keep away from my soul
keep away from my mind
keep away from myheart
its you !!!

note : dedicated to a good friend !! change your view !!

Server !!

everything i called untrue
seems to be so real
now that im weak
everything can be admited

now that my reality is down
my heart so quiet
these scars of my past
dont let me think straight

tear me apart
bring me down
im a server
to link sadness
feel like i never felt
so bad
so sad´
i wish i could find the reason why
why all seems dead around
i never felt nothing more

im not like i used to be
some thoughts dont disappear easily
but i still thinking how i let it scape
from my pain i builded my life

rip my soul away from my head
my conscience dont let me be someone else
my hair writtes black on blue sky
im not bad , i just turn things good yet !!

here i begin to end this stupid vision
of beeing some crazy corpse
buried down the sea
i found in my habit the air to breath
and there is you
looking at me
my eyes turned white
i can finally live
or is just a ilusion of my mind ???

Confident !!!

i confess...

I like to serve you
i love you to serve me
i give you my love
i give you my hate
my happyness
my sadness
i am always trying to get close to you
and i always run away from you
i get impressed with you
i feel depressed by you
i open my eyes to see you
then i close them again
i smile because of you
i cry for you

i love to be your slave
i love to be your master
you fill me with your emptyness
you absorve my past
i eat yor future
and we burn the present on our hands

now tomorrow is today
yeasterday was never