tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-91951882011-04-21T12:21:18.758-07:00Life's a fraud Szadekhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04923169943839158289noreply@blogger.comBlogger231100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9195188.post-1110542951048271312005-03-11T04:07:00.000-08:002005-03-11T04:09:11.050-08:00Amor é realmente o que eu sinto<br />dentro deste pequeno coraçao<br />estao sentimentos profundos por quem nunca senti<br />algo que me parecia impossivel sentir<br />mas que na verdade nao pude resitir<br /><br />Sei que nao me devo preocupar<br />com pequenas dificuldades que atravesso<br />mas os meus olhos nao veem claro<br />sao negros e tudo escurece<br /><br />Sei que nao deveria ser assim<br />estes pensamentos todos rivalizando dentro de mim<br />corroendo-me a carne umas vezes<br />ou brilhando a minha mente por outras<br /><br />Ja á anos que tenho a mesma dificuldade<br />apenas tenho esperança que a minha vida tenha um novo rumo<br />que o passado sejam apenas memorias<br />que gradualmente devo esquecer<br />olhar em frente , nao pensar demais<br />viver apenas com a minha alma livre<br /><br />É o que desejo , mais sinceramente do que alguma vez foi !!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9195188-111054295104827131?l=headake-lavagem.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Szadekhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04923169943839158289noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9195188.post-1108676461236405332005-02-17T13:39:00.000-08:002005-02-17T13:41:01.236-08:00tudo começa do mesmo modo<br />começo a acreditar<br />mas logo e retirado de mim<br />pensamentos esquecidos<br />ninguem se lembra<br />existencia superficial<br />os dias sao negros<br />a minha vida e dificil de encontar<br /><br />Perdido num mar de ilusao <br />sem nada a dizer<br />nao ha paixao<br />virar as costas ao amor<br />sem chegar a nenhuma conclusao<br /><br />cair dentro de um poço negro<br />cheio de mentiras<br />a nada eu chego<br />a nada pareço encontrar<br />a minha cabeça começa a desconcertar<br />relogio avariado<br />nao ha hora para amar<br /><br />guitarras distorcendo a minha veia<br />o sangue estaca<br />nao corre<br />negro ele é<br />fodendo tudo e todos <br />é a minha concusao , ai tinha de chegar<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9195188-110867646123640533?l=headake-lavagem.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Szadekhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04923169943839158289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9195188.post-1107802030601204882005-02-07T10:42:00.000-08:002005-02-07T10:47:10.600-08:00every time is the same <br />someone like me dont have blame <br />just hurts his body against these black rosed walls <br />as his head slowly bleeds and falls <br />everybody fall <br />but not like me <br />against the hurt of beeing alone <br />one more fucking valentine's day <br /> <br />if these is a reality , i guess i dont want to live in <br />cuz there's no love for those like me <br />everybody's free <br />but just not me <br /> <br />fuck valentine's day <br />fuck valentine's day <br />its just what i say <br /> <br />roses , flowers , love , happyness <br />hurt , pain ,hate , sadness <br /> <br />hear the sound of the wave of life <br />in my hand , a knife <br />to cut my heart open <br />and let my soul get out <br />is just another day alone <br />on fucking valentine's day <br /> <br />fuck valentine's day <br />fuck valentine's day <br />its just what i say <br /> <br />maybe is too soon to just say these words , but if all your life was like this what are you expecting for ?? good news ?? No , its always the same , time is bored , no time to complain for those who live on the edge of life and it dont seems to disappear , its a desease , of my mind and those who just think like me !!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9195188-110780203060120488?l=headake-lavagem.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Szadekhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04923169943839158289noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9195188.post-1106708764748145902005-01-25T19:05:00.000-08:002005-01-25T19:06:04.780-08:00You touch my skin , i wonder <br />if you really enjoy <br />with my thoughts <br />i think im your toy <br />my silence , your words <br />my mind <br />shutdown <br /> <br />im cold , im angry <br />i hate , my suicide <br />my life , is painless <br />my future , is my darkness <br /> <br />your hands on my back <br />your pain , on my mind <br />i wonder ... i wonder <br /> <br />all your lies filled my mouth <br />i cant say what i want <br />i dont dream <br />i waste it all away <br />even if you come back <br />even if you love me again <br />i wonder... <br /> if it would be the same!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9195188-110670876474814590?l=headake-lavagem.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Szadekhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04923169943839158289noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9195188.post-1105294361563502672005-01-09T10:11:00.000-08:002005-01-09T10:12:41.563-08:00im disfunctional , some part of me is missing <br />without it im insecure <br />i dont see straight <br />my dark in my eyes <br />it happens every time <br />i see myself in the mirror <br />without you <br /> <br />i know i hurt myself <br />i know i bore you <br />i know you say to i keep myself away <br />but my emptyness dont have another solution <br /> <br />you saying these words , you put my soul in the ground <br />but i cant help myself stop thinking <br />thinking in another version of my life <br />a life that i had before <br />before beeing dead inside <br /> <br />i found my home inside your heart <br />but i lost the key <br />i cant open the door <br />no matter what i do , is never what you want <br />i dont know what you pretend <br /> <br />its like you have a knife <br />stabbed in my heart <br />killing my love <br />leaving me <br />above the edge <br />to fall apart again , to fall apart again <br /> <br /> <br />depressed by your way to love me <br />i know you do <br />sad is you not show it to me <br />mad is me when i see i have to keep away <br />keep away from my soul <br />keep away from my mind <br />keep away from myheart <br />its you !!! <br /> <br />note : dedicated to a good friend !! change your view !!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9195188-110529436156350267?l=headake-lavagem.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Szadekhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04923169943839158289noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9195188.post-1105036783273815192005-01-06T10:30:00.000-08:002005-01-06T10:39:43.273-08:00everything i called untrue <br />seems to be so real <br />now that im weak <br />everything can be admited <br /> <br />now that my reality is down <br />my heart so quiet <br />these scars of my past <br />dont let me think straight <br /> <br />tear me apart <br />bring me down <br />im a server <br />to link sadness <br />feel like i never felt <br />so bad <br />so sad´ <br />i wish i could find the reason why <br />why all seems dead around <br />i never felt nothing more <br /> <br />im not like i used to be <br />some thoughts dont disappear easily <br />but i still thinking how i let it scape <br />from my pain i builded my life <br /> <br />rip my soul away from my head <br />my conscience dont let me be someone else <br />my hair writtes black on blue sky <br />im not bad , i just turn things good yet !! <br /> <br />here i begin to end this stupid vision <br />of beeing some crazy corpse <br />buried down the sea <br />i found in my habit the air to breath <br />and there is you <br />looking at me <br />my eyes turned white <br />i can finally live <br />or is just a ilusion of my mind ??? <br /> <div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9195188-110503678327381519?l=headake-lavagem.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Szadekhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04923169943839158289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9195188.post-1104949285619165282005-01-05T10:19:00.000-08:002005-01-05T10:21:25.620-08:00i confess... <br /> <br />I like to serve you <br />i love you to serve me <br />i give you my love <br />i give you my hate <br />my happyness <br />my sadness <br />i am always trying to get close to you <br />and i always run away from you <br />i get impressed with you <br />i feel depressed by you <br />i open my eyes to see you <br />then i close them again <br />i smile because of you <br />i cry for you <br /> <br />i love to be your slave <br />i love to be your master <br />you fill me with your emptyness <br />you absorve my past <br />i eat yor future <br />and we burn the present on our hands <br /> <br />now tomorrow is today <br />yeasterday was never<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9195188-110494928561916528?l=headake-lavagem.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Szadekhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04923169943839158289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9195188.post-1104511645745995282004-12-31T08:45:00.000-08:002004-12-31T08:47:25.746-08:00happy new year !! <br /> <br />happy new year , without lies <br />happy new year , without false words <br />hope our heart dont dies <br />when the evil cut it with its swords <br />when our head look down... <br /> <br />our eyes empty <br />hope it could be different this time <br />stop walking on the wire <br />fill our eyes with life <br />new and fresh... <br /> <br />forget the past and its scars <br />its locked in the red stars <br />red of our blood , our heart <br />here is a new beggining <br />a new start <br />a new feeling <br />close your eyes <br />and wake up again .... <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9195188-110451164574599528?l=headake-lavagem.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Szadekhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04923169943839158289noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9195188.post-1104172065862947562004-12-27T10:20:00.000-08:002004-12-27T10:27:45.863-08:00if i could find a way <br />to rest lonely and calm <br />face with big eyes this days <br />and no longer waste my time <br /> <br />with single parts of my life <br />i build a shield <br />to protect me against <br />all enemies that want to hunt my soul <br />and sell it in the death market <br /> <br />this is the way i taste it <br />things you never wanted to face <br />but i see your blood <br />it leave me traces <br />of your fingers <br />in my heart <br />trying to take control of my body <br />and soul <br />but until my mind survive <br />no one can take my soul away from me <br />cuz this is the way i taste it <br /> <br />but if i fall on your ways <br />i can find my way back <br />to protect my love <br />and leave you with your hate <br />stills a fate <br />the fate of me running from you <br /> <br />Cuz all the faces i've seen <br />turned to void <br />something left me as i look inside <br />of pain that i always tryed to hide <br />all the times i screamed <br />i died a little more <br />but now i have to save myself <br />from all the sickness you inject me <br />my veins are tired <br />imploding death <br />now is time to stop killing me <br />cuz this the way i taste it <br />the way <br />the way i taste <br />the way i taste it <br /> <br />I AM NOT DEAD <br />I AM NOT DEAD <br />IS THIS WHAT I SEE <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9195188-110417206586294756?l=headake-lavagem.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Szadekhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04923169943839158289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9195188.post-1103443552988042042004-12-18T23:55:00.000-08:002004-12-19T00:05:52.986-08:00<img src="http://img157.exs.cx/img157/4081/feedme1zl.jpg" width="1000" height="1000" alt="Image Hosted by ImageShack.us" /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9195188-110344355298804204?l=headake-lavagem.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Szadekhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04923169943839158289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9195188.post-1103330555003288252004-12-17T16:40:00.000-08:002004-12-17T16:42:35.003-08:00<img src="http://img29.exs.cx/img29/4291/biohazardskullbyretrocide9xn.jpg" alt="Image Hosted by ImageShack.us" height="768" width="1024" /> <br /> <br />I wake up with the feel of being dead all time <br />all the people i recognize dont know <br />but i have my head full of some stuff <br />some stuff they had never lerned <br />some think is sick <br />some think is me trying to blame <br />but is just me <br />trying to get free from you <br /> <br />this pain <br />i am ashamed <br />cuz im not cleaver enought <br />to run from the things <br />you have betraid <br />this love <br />will born never again <br />cuz im to stupid to understand <br />i prefer keep running away <br />from the words you betraid <br /> <br />living in my head for just one day <br />seems a big sacrifice <br />my world is gray <br />not beatifull <br />not ugly <br />just the way it is <br /> <br />This faces i see <br />i have to bleed <br />my time is short <br />is survive or die <br />die on this rules <br />i have never been to take them <br />i just hate it <br />i just blame it <br />and i dont have to let nobody see me <br />dying inside of myself <br />Im insecure <br />of things im not sure <br />you are so pure <br />but you have betraid me <br />i will not give you my soul again !!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9195188-110333055500328825?l=headake-lavagem.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Szadekhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04923169943839158289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9195188.post-1103227585289158592004-12-16T13:00:00.000-08:002004-12-16T12:06:25.290-08:00<div style="text-align: justify;"><span style="font-weight: bold;"></span><img src="http://img154.exs.cx/img154/4233/0313xc.jpg" alt="Image Hosted by ImageShack.us" height="768" width="1024" /> <br /></div> <br />Im tired of the lies <br />nothing real you left inside <br />crowd comes hunt you <br />and i hope you care <br /> <br />when finnaly you get catched <br />you'll feel that the objective is dead <br />nothing is like what was before <br />everything was seen at this point <br />what you can do now is run <br />for your life <br />for your family <br />for your soul <br /> <br />cuz nothing could bring you back <br />you are wasted away <br />forever your sins will be judged <br />your are stucked away <br />away from this world <br />away from this people <br />away from your love <br />away from yourself <br /> <br />nothing could be more clear <br />we all can see you now <br />under your feets <br />you are criyng <br />wish that this is not real <br />pray for your gods <br />hope we would be careless <br />dream that we would never felt sadness <br />wish it was a dream <br />lost on a stream <br />for your happyness <br /> <br />everyday is another day <br />is never too late <br />to rearrange this day <br />end up the hate <br />whith your washed soul you will stay <br />until you die<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9195188-110322758528915859?l=headake-lavagem.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Szadekhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04923169943839158289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9195188.post-1103094585908131832004-12-14T22:56:00.000-08:002004-12-14T23:09:45.906-08:00Something pulls me down <br />hit me in the heart <br />make me feel like im an idiot <br />stealing me my life <br />i cant understand <br />am i sleeping awake ?? <br /> <br />waking up ... so dead <br />thinking who will sream , to make me sad <br />burn me down <br />hit me in the ground <br />lie to me <br />put me in the ashes <br />of my mind <br /> <br />down again <br />another time <br />some people think im already adquired <br />for death <br />for pain <br />for lies that fill my heart <br />and make me bleed from the eyes <br /> <br />i cant look into the mirror <br />see my face again <br />thinking that im straight <br />looking for light <br />to free my life <br />my body shakes agony <br />it looks like some simplicity <br />it takes another breath of me <br />make me disappear <br />live without fear <br />receive whatever could appear <br />..... <br />then ...... <br />LET ME GO <br />LET ME GOW <br />FUCK YOU , YOU DONT OWN ME <br />YOU NEVER DID <br />LIER , TELL ME ANOTHER STORY <br />YOU FAKE <br />YOU FAKE <br />YOU FAKE!!!! <br /> <br />die my skin <br />one more time <br />reborn from the ashes <br />like it was the first time <br />for me........ <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9195188-110309458590813183?l=headake-lavagem.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Szadekhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04923169943839158289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9195188.post-1102667346845537322004-12-10T01:19:00.000-08:002004-12-10T00:29:06.846-08:00<img src="http://img127.exs.cx/img127/1384/death9rb.gif" alt="Image Hosted by ImageShack.us" height="106" width="110" /> <br /> <br />tru the dark i walk <br />braking walls <br />spreading life <br />no one cares <br /> <br />smart people grow back <br />dont have a single interesting piece to me <br />something is happening <br />my crash is wondering tomorrow <br />tomorrow will be ?? <br />will i see ?? <br />SET ME FREE <br /> <br />im ashamed for things i cared <br />never felt the reason why <br />distant <br />from myself <br />i dont sleep <br />i dont dream <br />what kind of hell im living in ? <br /> <br />tru the dark <br />i separate <br />my skin , from red , my eyes <br />turn black <br />goodbye sad world <br />goodbye strange friend <br />that i call my head ... <br /> <br />sing death for this life <br />bring again an existing lie <br />fill them with false pretends <br />as a bastard lives in my veins ... <br /> <br />smart people ... i dont like <br />idiots they are , thinking they are right <br />looking my face <br />seeing some unfinished <br />no heart , no skin <br />no life , no pain <br />no memories , no brain <br />WITHOUT MYSELF <br />falling from the train <br />OF MY LIFE <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9195188-110266734684553732?l=headake-lavagem.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Szadekhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04923169943839158289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9195188.post-1102187781407955222004-12-04T11:14:00.000-08:002004-12-04T11:16:21.406-08:00As i look into my eyes i see the knives <br />trying to cut my shadow <br />leaving me with lies <br />that can not heal <br />my soul <br />i have to find a better way to leave my soul away from here <br />a place to fill my spirit <br />with everything <br />i was never here , i was in the dark corner <br /> <br />to feel the safer place i run <br />i fall <br />on every single piece of sadness <br />as i cry <br />no one can ear me <br />my hell is cold <br />my blood is frozen <br />someone help <br />me <br />someone lead the way <br />im to blame my cause <br />im to slave <br />your love <br />im against your moves <br />im just feel it <br /> <br />this time is konking all day <br />dont let me sleep <br />fuck all in my way <br />im just a sad creep <br />im looking a glass <br />i have to break it <br />it have my brain locked <br />locked in a lie <br /> <br />as i see my pain float in the air <br />i feel life is not fair <br />as i see my finger burning <br />i feel my soul is coming <br />as i modify myself <br />i burn things i had never felt <br />as i dream <br />im on another stream <br />is it a meaning of my life <br />or is just a pain in the fucked life ?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9195188-110218778140795522?l=headake-lavagem.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Szadekhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04923169943839158289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9195188.post-1102050204246875612004-12-02T20:57:00.000-08:002004-12-02T21:03:24.246-08:00<img src="http://img27.exs.cx/img27/8919/b1-xanimal28t.jpg" alt="Image Hosted by ImageShack.us" height="112" width="150" /> <br /> <br /> <br />All the perfect colors inside your mind <br />dont clarify the sickness you have <br />more resources you have to find <br />to feed your flesh , you slave ... <br /> <br />slave of anger <br />slave of souls <br />life maniac ... hater <br /> <br />look up the sky ... is bleeding the souls you assumed <br />look up to the eyes of people <br />cant you recognize ?? <br />they are inside your rotten apple <br /> <br />leed the way ... consume everything <br />leave your children with the rests <br />you cant see anything <br />as your body the earth infests <br /> <br />slave of anger <br />slave of souls <br />life maniac ... hater <br />what will be your next step?? <br />to takes us all to hell <br />feed you with all <br />leave us nothing <br />slave you are <br />slave you will be <br />slave you will turn us all <br />slave of anger <br />slave of souls <br />SEEDS OF DESTRUCTION <br /> <br />why wont you die ... DIE NOW <br />why wont you disappear ... disappear now <br /> <br />fucker never turned this alrigth <br />consumer of everything <br />soon we will be wasted <br />sucker of our lives <br />eat our eyes <br />fill us with lies <br /> <br />c'mon <br />fucker <br />waste us now waste us now waste us now <br />u seed of DESTRUCTION <br /> <br />SMART YOU ARE .... <br />i HATE you <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9195188-110205020424687561?l=headake-lavagem.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Szadekhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04923169943839158289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9195188.post-1102019362108454482004-12-02T13:26:00.000-08:002004-12-02T12:30:01.676-08:00<img src="http://img104.exs.cx/img104/8521/60-Ghostly_monk.jpg" width="291" <br />height="366" alt="Image Hosted by ImageShack.us" /> <br /> <br />Im awaken , lights on <br />dogs spliting my flesh ... something is in my eye <br />I scream until my mouth colapse <br />my veins are not blue <br />my nails came out of my ears <br />nothing i can hear now <br /> <br />so what ?? im this way <br />nothing you say can modify my cells <br />and theres no day <br />theres no time <br />theres no moment <br />in this space <br />can change my cells <br /> <br />this is a special event.... <br /> <br /> I found the void in their heads <br />their words dont come inside <br />never faced the rain of tears <br />of my eyes <br />blood spread me <br />away <br />something in my eyes <br />ARE YOU .... <br /> <br /> <br />blame me <br />torture me <br />scream at me <br />fuck me <br />scar me <br />----- everything you can <br />so DO IT <br />do it now do it now do it now do it now <br /> <br />hah aha... <br />im not sorry for nothing <br />i leave away with a pretty fuck you <br />so fuck you!!! <br /> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9195188-110201936210845448?l=headake-lavagem.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Szadekhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04923169943839158289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9195188.post-1101614342875738542004-11-27T19:41:00.000-08:002004-11-27T19:59:02.876-08:00Parte do iteresse principal dos humanos ( na sua grande maioria ) é tentar obter , atraves de esquemas raramente inofensivos , satisfaçao interior . <br />O seu ego na grande maioria é tao fraco , que , necessita de uma avaliaçao positiva exterior para se erguer momentaneamente .Se a avaliaçao é negativa entao o ego ou rejeita a avaliaçao , ou aceita e regride uns momentos no tempo. <br />Essa regressao leva a pensamentos passados , que na sua maioria sao destrutivos , apenas superado com uma outra avaliaçao positiva. <br />Isto tudo deve-se a uma sociedade fraca, inutil e superficial que educa hoje em dia as pessoas ao longo da sua vida neste pais ,tal como em muitos outros paises europeus. <br />Estes seres torna-se futeis , frageis , imcompreendidos virtualmente e incapazes de olhar para o outro lado do espelho da vida . <br />" eu sou a sociedade " -NÃO - pelo menos nao reflito a sociedade em que estou inserido , eu criei-me , estabeleci razões plausiveis e coerentes e não me sinto a copia dos demais serventes deste motor obsoleto " sociedade de hoje em dia ". <br />Porque na verdade a maioria dos escravos virtuais deste pais sao um reflexo distorcido e mal iluminado de uma afirmaçao interior de cada unidade - humano. <br />Eu nao sou melhor nem pior , talvez tambem faça parte desta imundice , mas pelo menos ja cheguei a conclusao de que esta realidade nao é a que quero, e pretendo sair dela . <br />O que sera que vou ganhar ou perder ??? <br />- a resposta é obvia , para a saber é so pensar um bocadinho . <br /> <br />É apenas uma reflexão , nao uma critica , mas sim uma reflexão e pensamento expressa aqui. <br />quando me lembrar , acabo com a reflexão na parte 2 , porque se nao lerem esta primeiro , nao vão entender a segunda. <br />not sorry , all pride for that <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9195188-110161434287573854?l=headake-lavagem.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Szadekhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04923169943839158289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9195188.post-1101435739379912882004-11-25T18:04:00.000-08:002004-11-25T18:22:19.380-08:00What kind of purpose have I to emerge this way ? <br />mirrors ... got my soul locked <br />all the same comments in the walls every single day.... <br />for what ? to knock me down again .... <br /> <br />Im re-connected to your world ... <br />now your codes i can understand ... <br />i have my soul back <br />Im re-connected again ... <br />i can smell your flesh TODAY .!! <br /> <br />I get sick to the death ... when you get off of me ... <br />i cannot pretend a white screen this way .... <br />it all comes down to black all day.... <br />Some message you got wrong .... wrong like always .... you are always the same ... <br /> <br />some kind of pleasure you got .... <br />by making shields of thoughts .... <br />hiding me yourself ... <br />what kind of sickness do i have... <br />by loving you this WAY ?? <br /> <br />Im not ashamed to say things like i do .... <br />its a shit , im fucked anyway <br />for loving you another day <br />deleting my soul ... loving you .... <br /> <br /> <br />end of story .... <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9195188-110143573937991288?l=headake-lavagem.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Szadekhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04923169943839158289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9195188.post-1101260792883121372004-11-23T17:25:00.000-08:002004-11-23T17:46:32.883-08:00<div style="text-align: center;"><img src="http://img124.exs.cx/img124/3985/pentagrama.jpg" alt="Image Hosted by ImageShack.us" /> <br /></div> <br />if u could know <br /> <br />if u could know whats inside of me <br /> <br />if u could understand why i am this way <br />its only because i never was the perfect <br />my life was always hard to take <br />deep inside was always dark that i can hardly say <br /> <br />all i have now, was hard to get ... im so insecure, just take this hell away from me <br />i know im so sad ...i wish u COULD KNOW <br /> <br />this pictures inside my mind <br />they come out every time <br />i close my eyes.... <br />and when i open them i kick myself <br />to ensure is real and im not dreaming <br /> <br />i was fighting against all my life <br />it damaged my mind <br />all the time <br />i was waiting for health <br />it never comes <br />i just dont want to loose my head <br />again <br /> <br />this pictures inside my mind <br />they come out every time <br />i close my eyes.... <br />and when i open them i kick myself <br />to ensure is real...still im dreaming? <br />just know it ...just know it..... <br />just know that im not so strong <br />i was sleeping so long <br />all my life... <br />i just want to say what i never could tell <br />i hope u understand....and just dont runaway <br />from me <br /> <br />i wish u could see the pain in my eyes <br />you'll get scared ... but is ok ... im here forever ..... <br />forever <br />forever..... <br />for you ........ <br /> <br /> <br /> <br />Ps: this lyric was made by me to someone ... but the sad thing was that she didnt cared about it ... so fuck her .... DONT DESERVE !!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9195188-110126079288312137?l=headake-lavagem.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Szadekhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04923169943839158289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9195188.post-1101171521968471372004-11-22T16:43:00.000-08:002004-11-22T16:58:41.970-08:00<div style="text-align: right;"><img src="http://img108.exs.cx/img108/443/JORGE-iminsane.jpg" alt="Image Hosted by ImageShack.us" /> <br /></div> <br /> <br />~~~~ ~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~ <br />This fire is burning down inside my nails , no chances were given to me <br />This brain is living a life ... dead , no chances to be <br />my heart so numb , so gone , so bleeded <br />waste on space ... nobody remember it ... just wasted ..... <br /> <br />Forgotten ..... <br /> <br />my thoughts scream loud ... nobody listen <br />my red eye implode ... nothing left to love <br />me and me above me , left with only me .... just ME <br /> <br />my sadness leads to my crazyness , im so fuckin thoughtless .... <br />im getting nervous ... boom ... a vein explod , blood paint my wall with my face scared of my life ... my lies ... my body , my soul..... <br /> <br />nothing left to hear ... everything silenced <br />just me <br />just me <br />just me <br />just me <br />just me <br />just me <br /> <br />left with only me <br />with no chances to be <br /> <br />~~~~ ~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~~~~~ ~~ ~~ <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9195188-110117152196847137?l=headake-lavagem.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Szadekhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04923169943839158289noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9195188.post-1100965846308520032004-11-20T07:45:00.000-08:002004-11-20T07:50:46.306-08:00<img src="http://img66.exs.cx/img66/6200/img_0102.jpg" alt="Image Hosted by ImageShack.us" /> <br /> <br />Look at me now , my mind dont think straight , my muscles are disconnected , and all people around me dont know how to react !!! <br />funny and sad , at the same time ..... <br /> <br />When im like this ... just look away from me .... leave me alone with my thoughts and crazyness , if not , you will get scared with me!!!! <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9195188-110096584630852003?l=headake-lavagem.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Szadekhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04923169943839158289noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9195188.post-1100749428574749842004-11-17T19:19:00.000-08:002004-11-17T19:43:48.573-08:00 Epa nao percebo realmente as merdas ke me acontecem . sera mesmo um birus ?? serei eu ou o caralho ?? nao entendo ... <br /> As disfunções metabolicas desta bida em total putrefacçao da relaçao substancial plena principal melancolica entre duas luzes , uma cintilante outra malograda , compostas entre si decompoem klkr tipo de meta suspcectiva originando um buraco silencioso no processo dito alma . FUCK THIS!!! <br /> As vezes a mente liberta toxinas que encobrem o processo dito " pensamento " e reagimos numa determinada maneira considerada animalesca ... mas sera ke tou errado ou tou no caminho erroneo?? sao questoes ke nao se conseguem responder imediatamente , plo menos para o meu complexo sistema de foderme todo. <br /> Despedir-me de todo esta panoplia de traumas , pressionando o gatilho seria demasiado radical , enfrentar este demonio e a PUTA da minha sina , feridas que nao saram , sangram ciclicamente as minhas atitudes , incompreensão de quem nunca compreendeu correspondida com odio mortal e FLAMEJANTE. <br /> O sangue nao corre , move-se ardendo o meu interior , segregando o resto da minha consciencia , gregando-o logo de seguida no esquecimento. <br /> Sem bater cardiaco , respirar lento e arrastado , pensamentos sombrios e abismais deixo aqui a minha lapide : porque tera esta merda que ser assim ??!! <br /> <br /> <br /> FUCK THE ONES WHO ACCEPT BELONG <br /> THE FATALITIES OF THIS PLANET ... <br /> FUCKIN IRONIC ISNT IT ??? <br /> <br /> =/ »» DARKTHOUGHTS BY : - HEADAKE & MARKORP5E <br /> ««blacknails»» <br /> { 666 } <br /> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/9195188-110074942857474984?l=headake-lavagem.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Szadekhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04923169943839158289noreply@blogger.com1